Thoughts and frustrations...true ramblings and run-ons

I have come to realize recently that there is a HUGE difference from attending church and being involved in church. Many people today want a church where the music is modern and the preaching is deep and impacting. I see this as a good thing. Where things start to bother me is that I feel many times people attend these churches to feel better about themselves. They can tell their friends and coworkers that their church is feeding the needy or their church is doing this or doing that in the city/neighborhood but what are THEY doing as attenders of the church? Church was never designed to be a get together or party or a place where people sit, sing, and listen and not act. Church was meant for people to learn and to teach others how to become more like Christ. Please tell me once where Christ said "look at all these things that my followers are doing? Isn't it wonderful?" Nope, instead he taught others how to serve, to spend every waking moment praising God and serving others. If you are going to church to feel good about yourself you're doing it wrong.
Remember high school?  Remember saying why do I need to learn this I will never use this... well guess what you do need it and you will use it. Have you ever sat in church and said why am I learning this I won't use this? Probably not. Why? because that would make us look bad and make us look like we are not living a life worthy of being called a christian. Well we may never outwardly say that but in reality it gets said all the time! I am guilty of it and so are you. When was the last time you volunteered to serve on a ministry team to feed the homeless, participate in a prayer walk, or even just walk the streets and talk to strangers at the bus stop about God? I bet it wasn't recently. Sure when the church makes announcements about needing volunteers at the soup kitchen you may help out every once and a while, but why are we waiting to be asked nay begged to help? This should be automatic. If the church today was truly acting as a group of "little Christs" then we should never have to ask for volunteers. People would be banging down the doors trying to help. Why isn't this way? Status. People today don't want to get "dirty" talking or working with people "less than they are" because of what other people may think. It makes me sick to think about this because I have found myself to be this way at times but also because majority of people in church today are this way. Thinking about all of this makes me wonder what God really thinks of the church today as a whole. Is He pleased with our overall performance? I don't know... probably more to come at a later date on this subject but I am rambling on and not being very grammatically correct now and its bothering me so I will end.

Another vacation come to close

Well it's been about four months since my last entry. A lot has changed since April. I had a birthday, we've made some renovations on our house, I finally got back to working days again, and most importantly my wife and I had decided that its time for change. As we both sit on our front porch of our quaint little house in the sleepy town of Pen Argyl we discuss the future and what it may hold for us, I smoke my Rocky Patel java cigar and contemplate our life changes. I have come to realize that I am more ready now than ever to pack up and leave this area. Where are we going might you ask? Well it seems our hearts are set on North Carolina. Some may say, why there? Why so far away? What about your family? Well to answer all of these questions in one sentence, I don't know. The only thing that I do know is that Rachel and I have prayed and prayed about where God would lead us as a family and North Carolina, Raleigh-Durham area to be more precise, seems to be our best fit. With Rachel finishing up her masters and becoming a Nurse Practitioner this is a perfect area for her career being that it is the research triangle of NC. For me I work in retail and if I can't get a transfer down there, well, as long as there is a grocery store or some kind of retail market I will be able to find work. Also with NC being in the Bible Belt of America there are plenty of churches that are hiring worship pastors and there is plenty of opportunity for me to use the gifts that God has given me.

Now to address the hardest part of this decision, leaving family. This part is difficult to address for me. Yes I did go to college for a year in Virginia however I made MANY weekend trips home where I could spend time with my family. This move will be difficult for me especially in this light. I will not be able to make as many trips home to see my family. My parents have talked about moving as well but due to the fact that my brother and his kids don't plan on moving yet, I don't see them following after us. Will I miss them? Absolutely. Will it keep me from moving south? No. With exception to getting married three years ago, I have never felt as strong or at peace about moving south. Rachel and I would appreciate your prayers over the coming months as we make final renovations to put our house on the market and hopefully sell before we move. The plan as of right now is that Rachel graduates in July and we are hoping to be ready and able to move sometime next August or September. This gives us a year to get our house situated and begin looking for a place down there. A lot has to happen between now and then and yes things ultimately could change and God could lead us elsewhere but as for now this seems to be the plan that has been laid out before us and it is the plan that we are following. I hope you enjoyed this little update on our life, and stay tuned for further updates.